Day 1 to my spiritual journey and realignment on life

2019 has been a roller coaster and I write to release. I have not written for six months and what once bought me solace had became my pain. It has been almost 2.5 years since I posted and reflected back to my entry on January 31, 2017 talking about the love of my life. As I prepared for my first bible study fellowship, I opened my bible to a letter I wrote to my ex stating how we will need to work hard to align us. I found the letter first then several hours later found an old blog post from January 2017. Irony to say the least. My ex passed away suddenly from a stroke at 47 years old. He was alone and was found several days after it occurred. Words can not express this profound feeling that is still within me but I know I am here sharing my story for a reason. In hindsight, maybe finding both of these on the first day of my spiritual journey is a testimony to my strength. I have not mourned his death yet because I have had to be strong for all around me. For the first time in six months, I feel the journey is about to begin. My entries will be about everyday life, my experiences with my group, my concerns, my questions and inspirations. It may not be for everyone but if I can affect one person, I know I am making a difference.